consumed by the night

Hi guys, instead of doing updates, I shall continue to rant ! Oops, but I believe that you guys are the best readers and the only ones I could rant to. And I know haters are lurking out there reading this post ( Laugh and insult all you want ) but anyway, who cares. I felt so awful nowadays, I don't know how to describe this feeling but something just doesn't feel right. It's like my organs whirled together, just not in where they should belong. And this constant sour feeling in my chest. What do people call this ? Ah yes, heartache. Why ? I don't know man. I have to keep this post short because there are a lot of things I can't type out/ say out. But this feeling just irritates me so much till I can't stand it anymore. I wake up and go to sleep with this feeling all day long, I felt it in whatever I am doing, be it listening to music, doing nothing, eating, etc. I'm screaming inside every single night, hate this hate this hate all these so much. Why do I have to be so dumb, so stubborn to not let go ? But it's just so hard to let go. I like you but it hurts too much.