Hi guys ! It sure has been awhile but here I am writing a post again. Gonna do a little of updates and ranting then sums up today's post :)
You know what, I promoted to sec 4 (YAY) . I kind of expected myself to either drop to NA or retain but devil's luck was with me and I promoted in the end. Out of the 7 subjects that I took I passed 4 hehe. Well, being able to promote to sec 4 express really makes me feel better because I really put in effort for this eoy exam !
Oh, forgot to tell you guys about my upcoming performance at Bedok cross year party, I will be performing with some of the members from CSS 2013 so you guys can expect something from us, be sure to come to the cross year party so I can sing it out to all of you ! I give you all my biggest thanks in advance for those who will be there ! Although the songs have not been confirmed yet, but we will manage it somehow and ensure you guys would enjoy it. I will also be travelling to Batam ( Indonesia) and Johor during my holiday so friends from batam and johor that would want to meet me you will be most welcome to contact me ! :) I will definitely meet you guys if I got the time ! email me at : iamcrazysoidontcare@hotmail.com
I know my youtube channel has been dead for quite some time due to my exam periods, but now exams' over ! I will try my very best not to be lazy and upload a cover or maybe a vlog to update you guys more ! A overseas vlog maybe ? :) email me for suggestion ! I was really happy to have more than 100 subscribers at the moment, even though its only 100 but I take it as my first step into the circle of being a youtuber :)
And, moving on to my ranting... NOT MEANT FOR FATAL HEART SUFFERED FROM CRUSH ISSUES !
Have you ever love someone for more than a year without the person knowing ? All you ever do is talk to her and accompany her ? I have. I loved this girl for 2 years, even until this very day. I liked her ever since the first time I saw her on facebook, and loved her even more so when we first met in real life. We are just normal friends, not even bff. Just friend. She was so crazy over this guy when I first know her, they broke up and she was sad. I told her not to give up on him if she really like him. And I was right, he came back for her and she was so happy that I can sense it over the texts and messages when I chat with her, it stabbed me so hard in the heart but I thought, " hey, she is happy. Isn't that all I ever want for her ? " and so, I gave her my blessing and they went back together for nearly a year. Over these few months they are together, I spend day and night trying to forget her, I kept running and running away from how I feel and I thought, I'm over it. But then it happened all over again, but this time round, she was stronger. So i brought up my courage and ask her out on a outing, not really a date cuz we are just friend. My heart was racing incredibly fast and her smile strike me hard and I realized how much I love her, but ---- I can't tell her. And once again I try to run away. Until I realized another guy who like her like I do, except he left in the end but I'm still here. I admit, I don't talk to her as much as that guy would. I couldn't kept her company like that guy could. But I know, we all felt the same, or even more, it's just that I've never tell her how I feel and he did. She said it must have hurt that guy a lot for him to ask her not to give up on the guy she was crazy over when she was sad. I kind of thought, what about me ? When she told me that, I instantly laughed at myself, i almost cried.Guys, what should I do ? Should I tell her ? Or should I just keep this to myself ? For a moment I just became the saddest man in my world. Crush, so wonderful but so hurtful. It played me hard, fooled me bad.
My world went up high and down low.
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